study.

curls.

he means more to her than he knows.
she doesn't want to be hurt.
he tries so hard but always ends up letting her down.
she can't help but fogive and fall further.
he has more control over her than he knows.

teenage emotions are vile things although i'd rather feel the pain than live numb.

forgot.

i put some toast in the toaster and forgot about it after it popped so i microwaved it and it was perfect again.
if only everything was this easy to fix.

head ache.

pushing the limits.

begining of the end.

hello year twelve.

hello.

i can take photos.

bi-polar.

higher than high.
i miss you though.

bottomless pit.

I think I've found the meaning of empty.
nothing can really satisfy me lately.
complaining is wearing thin.
I'll keep trying.

thank you.

I find it easier to ignore you than to talk to you.
easier to sit here wondering what you're thinking than, knowing.
you're a hopeless sole without me and I guess that gives me purpose.

talk.

Ignoring everything was really never this easy. I've lost interest in my life. He makes me feel worthless on a daily basis. A pure idiot. Yet I am a result of his nature. I cry out for a attention and it makes me angry. I've lost self control and I don't know why I bother writing in this blog; no one reads it.

pondering.

i'd just like to pose the question; when was the last time something good happened to someone deserving? I am finding myself comeing up with nothing every time i consider it.

regrets.

every minute of every waking hour i ponder the things that didn't go so right. what if i had of put an extra few minutes into caring about different matters? what if i had of cared less and not been so narrow minded?
what if, how come, whose fault?

big difference.

I have come to realise it's the little things in life that mean the most to me.
Seeing my best friend waiting at school for me and smiling when I arrived really made me realise how much I take for granted.
Today was in no way special or better than the 'best' days but, at the same time just being around the people that make me smile made me feel content.

begining.

it's time for real change.
time to get what i want.